To the Good people.
To the Good people.
a year ago
a story ended.
She chose her 7 years old lover
I was short just by one.
See how important are numbers!!
Don’t fool yourself by believing
Numbers don’t matter!
We live in a materialistic world
so it would be better if we stopped being a mystic!!
All that you can
reLate to is loneliness of
the sKy for it is
aNd they have an
Excuse for being small.
This is the question I often ask myself, so what’s now?
I’ve achieved what I wanted so what’s now?
I’ve become what I wanted to be so what’s now?
I’ve love of my life with me so what’s now?
All my dreams have come true so what’s now?
I’ve a tendency to forget things I have or I’ve achieved in my life. I make plans after so much hard work and dedication and then I forget them or get distracted.
I don’t really want to change when I’m with you. I want to be crazy for you even after getting married. This fire of love should never extinguish!!
They say “one who cares less is powerful in a relationship”. I never cared for power in our relationship, I cared for you only, that’s the reason I let you decide everytime. Don’t think I’m weak and can’t take decisions. I can, like I took a decision for myself to go forward without you.
I was born in an abusive family, I was never abused but women in my family were. The day I met you, I decided to throw away this inborn temperament for you. I never wanted to hurt you and I hope I never did.
It’s not always a woman who changes a man, sometimes it’s a man who changed himself for his woman.
PS these notes are a part of my 40 days of contemplation in which I used to focus on my flaws and come out as a better person.
This is my first handwritten letter to you in almost 5 years. Yes, it’s been 5 years of knowing and loving you. I don’t remember the exact date on which we met, it was the grace of God that brought me to you. When I look back, I see how silly I was, with you I’ve become a good person (maybe not). A lot has changed after you came in my life and I’m grateful to you for that.
You know, I’m on verge of changing myself again and I work hard everyday. I’ve spent a long time in darkness and now I can see the light, I’m not there yet but I’ll be there soon. You’ll be surprised to know the things I’m doing these days.
How are you?
Do the kids at school still bother you?
You have bought a new car?
Are you playing baseball this year?
So many questions lol!!
Sometimes I can’t understand your actions and then I realize that this is because I see you from the point of view of a man. I never thought women are different.
I miss you, love. I miss you very much!
I don’t know how to be this letter as I feel like I could write for years and still not get tired.
Thank you for who you are. In one way or another you’ve always helped me.
PS I love you
“It was only a sunny smile, and little it cost in the giving, but like the morning light it scattered the night and made the day worth living.”~ F. Scott Fitzgerald
Life becomes Dear when
Loneliness Engulf the soul
which once was Alive
with the hope of Tomorrow
Last few days or I must say months
have been hard for me and
I think I’m making them hard for you too
with my whimsical moods.
Honestly, I feel unloved and ignored
most of the times, but it is not
your fault as my heart has been
very needy or greedy these days.
But I never stopped loving you
It is easy to fall for you than
to build a wall against you.
One day, I came to know that
Rumi wrote 10,000 poems for his beloved.
The only figure that came to my mind was 10 million.
Without you, I’m shallow
like this poem, no rhyme
no rhythm, just simple living.
I could write sad poems
But no, today is not a sad day.
It’s s day brimming with joy
If it’s not, I’ll steal everything from the sky
Just for you.
Your birthday comes on the last day
of August, bringing a change in the nature.
Just like you brought in my life.
You are an ocean
I want to be drowned in.
Knowing your heart is not easy
for it requires breaking my heart
a million times.
Do you think I can endure it?
I don’t know much about life
this world and love
but I know one thing
that you’re beautiful
and you always will be.
P.S I think it’s time to use the past tense since you are no longer in my future.
but I’m aware
of the good times waiting for me
on the other side of the tunnel.
30 years ago I was born
Life to me was unknown
Little by little I grew
The path wasn’t straight but askew
I was taught not to make mistakes
But this is what I love to partake.
If life were a book
Some pages would be blank
Some full of art
and some rusty.
I’ve survived promises and lies
I’m still strong and still I rise.
I’m always prepared to die
This is how I live my life.
This is the day I remember most
because I have filled it in forms so many times.