12.31.2016

This is my defense 

and I don’t mean any offense

when you don’t treat me right

I’ll disappear from your sight.

Why treat someone’s ignorance

with your priority? 

The reaction is endothermic 

and it’s already cold

Baby, don’t worry about me

for kindness is gold.

As we usher into the year

remember one thing: 

Whatever you’ll do to me

will act as a catalyst

for my transformation.

Your Birthday

Last few days or I must say months

have been hard for me and

I think I’m making them hard for you too

with my whimsical moods.

Honestly, I feel unloved and ignored

most of the times, but it is not

your fault as my heart has been

very needy or greedy these days.

But I never stopped loving you

It is easy to fall for you than

to build a wall against you.

One day, I came to know that

Rumi wrote 10,000 poems for his beloved.

The only figure that came to my mind was 10 million.

Without you, I’m shallow

like this poem, no rhyme

no rhythm, just simple living.
I could write sad poems

But no, today is not a sad day.

It’s s day brimming with joy

If it’s not, I’ll steal everything from the sky

Just for you.

Your birthday comes on the last day

of August, bringing a change in the nature.

Just like you brought in my life.

You are an ocean

I want to be drowned in.

Knowing your heart is not easy

for it requires breaking my heart 

a million times.

Do you think I can endure it?

 I don’t know much about life

this world and love

but I know one thing

that you’re beautiful

and you always will be.

P.S I think it’s time to use the past tense since you are no longer in my future.

Turning pages

30 years ago I was born
Life to me was unknown
Little by little I grew
The path wasn’t straight but askew
I was taught not to make mistakes
But this is what I love to partake.

If life were a book
Some pages would be blank
Some dusty
Some full of art
and some rusty.

I’ve survived promises and lies
I’m still strong and still I rise.
I’m always prepared to die
This is how I live my life.

This is the day I remember most
because I have filled it in forms so many times.

8.31.2016

Yesterday you were my poetry

and today you’re a forgotten poem.

Death didn’t tear us apart

but your decision did

and our forever didn’t last long.

I’ve waited so long for you

that my eyes don’t want to see you anymore.

You taught me how to love and how not to care.

Fifty eight minus one doesn’t make any difference

and I’m the one.

Well, Happy Bday 

and thanks for being my ex and my biggest failure of life.

To the sky

These are the days I have always waited for
My failures are celebrated as my victories
I can’t help myself but laugh at life and God
for all the silly things they do to me
God never helps
We just stop asking!
I’m learning to be wrong
because you proved me I was wrong
in believing certain things
by things I mean only love
How beautiful is to say
“I love you” from the bottom of your heart
Since you’ve left
my heart has bottomed out.
Thank you for the words
I’ve been clueless all this time.