This is the question I often ask myself, so what’s now?
I’ve achieved what I wanted so what’s now?
I’ve become what I wanted to be so what’s now?
I’ve love of my life with me so what’s now?
All my dreams have come true so what’s now?
I’ve a tendency to forget things I have or I’ve achieved in my life. I make plans after so much hard work and dedication and then I forget them or get distracted.
I don’t really want to change when I’m with you. I want to be crazy for you even after getting married. This fire of love should never extinguish!!
They say “one who cares less is powerful in a relationship”. I never cared for power in our relationship, I cared for you only, that’s the reason I let you decide everytime. Don’t think I’m weak and can’t take decisions. I can, like I took a decision for myself to go forward without you.
I was born in an abusive family, I was never abused but women in my family were. The day I met you, I decided to throw away this inborn temperament for you. I never wanted to hurt you and I hope I never did.
It’s not always a woman who changes a man, sometimes it’s a man who changed himself for his woman.
PS these notes are a part of my 40 days of contemplation in which I used to focus on my flaws and come out as a better person.
This is my first handwritten letter to you in almost 5 years. Yes, it’s been 5 years of knowing and loving you. I don’t remember the exact date on which we met, it was the grace of God that brought me to you. When I look back, I see how silly I was, with you I’ve become a good person (maybe not). A lot has changed after you came in my life and I’m grateful to you for that.
You know, I’m on verge of changing myself again and I work hard everyday. I’ve spent a long time in darkness and now I can see the light, I’m not there yet but I’ll be there soon. You’ll be surprised to know the things I’m doing these days.
How are you?
Do the kids at school still bother you?
You have bought a new car?
Are you playing baseball this year?
So many questions lol!!
Sometimes I can’t understand your actions and then I realize that this is because I see you from the point of view of a man. I never thought women are different.
I miss you, love. I miss you very much!
I don’t know how to be this letter as I feel like I could write for years and still not get tired.
Thank you for who you are. In one way or another you’ve always helped me.
PS I love you
“It was only a sunny smile, and little it cost in the giving, but like the morning light it scattered the night and made the day worth living.”~ F. Scott Fitzgerald